Sharp Edges

"Sharp edges have consequences. I guess that I had to find out for myself. Sharp edges have consequences. Now every scar is a story I can tell."

So the moral of my story is a simple one. In this grand thing we call life we are constantly faced with challenges and change. We chose to confront and surpass or deny and resist. In the end it is all up to each one of us. It is our life, our choices and path. Others can influence your decision, right or wrong, should you chose to listen to them the outcome lies on your own shoulders. 

While my last few posts and this one may seem dark, deep and depressing they are to me the exact opposite. They are empowering. I am looking into my darkest depths and I am rising like a phoenix from the ashes. In Linkin Park terms I have gone from Paper Cut to Sharp Edges. 

"But all the things I couldn’t understand, never could’ve planned. They made me who I am."

I have moved from the angst, fear, confusion and frustration to the acceptance that this is all natural and a journey that makes me, me. I never lost my "me-ness", I just never realized that the panicked, resistant, trapped person was still me. This is me when I am overwhelmed and unsure of my true resilience. I am always stronger than I think. 

Every time I fall down I learn more about me. I pick myself up and dust myself off and I am better for the stumble. Life is a journey that I am not ready to stop. I will never be anything more than me. Having said that I intend to be the best me I can be. If I fail, I will forgive myself and learn from my mistakes.

Once again it is the voice of Chester Bennington and the music of Linkin Park that has brought about this revelation. One man saved millions, but millions could not save one man. There is something so heartbreaking about this that wants me to always appreciate all I have in life.

Peace

"We all fall down. We live somehow. We learn what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger." ~ Linkin Park