Too Shy to Scream

One of the best things about being on an emotional roller coaster is that whatever mood you are experiencing will not last long. The ups are extreme and the lows are short lived.

Along with the hills and valleys of emotions comes 'hypersensitivity'. Things that normally don't even cross my mind - like other people's perceptions - haunt me day and night. I find I am constantly thinking about how my actions and words will be perceived by those around me.

This behaviour is something completely new to me. On a whole, I rarely give a rat's ass what people think of me. And for those who know me, I tend to say what I feel without a concern of other's perceptions. So now I question the change in my behaviour.

Why all of a sudden am I so hypersensitive? Why does sarcasm bother me so much? Why is it I cannot tolerate any constant negativity? Why am I disgusted with childish behaviours? And why am I stuck in this "irritated" cycle?

Generally all of these types of behaviours cross my path on a daily basis. I acknowledge the behaviour for what it is and then I move on. For some reason I am stuck. The behaviour agitates me and I dwell on it. Now I am left to try to understand why these behaviours make me so upset.

I am certain this is just a side effect of my emotional roller coaster. It is not something I want to keep in my life. Perhaps the fact that I recognize that I am hypersensitive is an indicator that I am already moving back to a middle ground.

Peace