To Write Or Not To Write, That is the Question

I am emotionally exhausted. The last thing I want to do is to delve into my emotions. In fact all I want to do right now is to stop feeling anything. So why do I continue to do this to myself?

Easy. One - it makes me feel better once I have put things down on paper. Two - when I re-read my posts I feel quite proud of what I have accomplished. Three - when I re-read my posts I often see how "silly" my sorrows really are.

Loss and grief, no matter how large or small, affects everyone in different ways. There is no right or wrong way to deal with grief. Sometimes I get lost in my grief and I have a hard time pulling myself out. The last few days I have been lost in grief. I know it was a result of holding everything in last week. I was hoping that my return to work and routine would pull me out of my despair, but it didn't.

What pulled me out was a simple statement from a friend ~ "Family always comes first". I know my grief is minor compared to others I know. I can't even begin to understand how these friends manage to cope and handle their grief. It is because of these people that I continue to write. Although my grief is not the same as the grief they are working through I hope that they are able to find some inspiration in the things that I write.

I write not only to calm myself but to inspire others, give hope to others and return to others some of the kindness that has been gifted to me. If my daily posts touch only one person then my emotional tireness has been worth it. And on those days that the one person my posts touch is me - I then find the strength and energy to carry on writing.

Peace